you say goodbye and i say hello

I have officially completed the Neruda portion of this graduate lit seminar. Blar. I have never been more ashamed of writing such an awful, awful paper. But it's done. So what am I doing now? Well, we have one last night of discussing Neruda tonight and then we move on to Cheslaw Milosz.

I have flagged all the poems that we are discussing for the rest of the semester and written down the questions I have to answer for next week's assignment. The trouble with these assingments is that I end up chasing ideas in so many different directions that I can never find a thread that I can follow, you know along with the fact that I just have no time to do so. But somehow, I have to overcome this dilemna, luckily the weekly assignment has been halved in size, phew. That should help a little. I think another problem is that I tend to look at the assignments before I read the poetry, so I end up only looking for specific things in the work. Somehow I need to bind and gag the taskmaster in me who always wants to get busy work out of the way, because she is tripping me up a bit too. Even if it drives me insane and I never have any free time I will find a way to actually do research for my next big paper in advance. I swear. Besides, I get to do a presentation with this one and that always motivates me more than simply writing papers.

In other news, I am loving my craft class. Serial Poem is the best. I heart Jack Spicer and I hearted Nathaniel Mackey too. I love the freedom I feel when I am working on my project, though it's hard to keep my grubby little mfa-er hands off it.

It may just be the fact that I have had little food and no sleep in the last 32 hours, but I am totally pumped about school right now. That just does not seem like the appropriate state of mind after an all-nighter. I think the right state of mind would be comatose. But I do need to make it through night class, so I won't complain.

Plus, the SOX are playing tonight. And since I am the center of the universe they will win, because whomever I cheer for always wins. I love being the center of the universe. life is great and I am effing adorable to boot, so there.


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